I just finished watching the Netflix series The Watcher and sat reeling from it. My very first thought was “What did I just watch?!” It was so baffling it made my head spin! I know it was based on a true story, so I spent a half hour just going down the rabbit hole of research into the background of this house at 657 Boulevard in Westfield, New Jersey, US. The curiosity was taunting me to see how much of this was fact versus how much was fiction.
When I need answers!
I am a late night Netflix binger and chronic book reader. I start shows after our foster children are all asleep. It’s my way to wind down and clear my mind. The Watcher wasn’t a show that left my mind clear…AT ALL! It sent me on a crazy chase of information of discovery that even followed me into my dreams. I dreamt of that house all night long. Does this happen to you?
I give it 4.5 stars
I heard this show was renewed for another season, and of course, I will be WATCHING…I guess we are all watchers! Haha! This is one series that held my attention to the end. I only wish it answered more questions than it created. I think that is the sign of a great show. It sticks with you long after it is over.
Tell me, what shows are you watching right now? Share with me in the comments here or on social media. I know many of you have shows on in the background to your craft, and I am curious to hear what has caught your attention? Also, share your thoughts on “The Watcher” if you, too, have seen the series. Be sure to warn *spoiler alert* before your comment, if you give details about the show. This will prevent giving away anything to those who haven’t seen it!
Happy Hooking & More! (and happy watching!)
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I am typically pretty upbeat and positive by nature. I have had to overcome a lot in the past decade, and I have spent some of that time feeling situational depression due to battling illness, surgery, dealing with body issues from having so many scars and a permanent ileostomy. When I found out I was able to get pregnant, and subsequently carry this baby, I was over the moon! Depression wasn’t even on my radar at that time.
I Knew It Wasn’t Going To Be Easy
I am extremely high risk. I have a team of doctors and specialists across three hospitals that will be involved in bringing this baby into the world safely. Of course, I am a bit nervous, but I also have great faith and trust in this team to do everything to help bring this baby boy into the world, keeping us both healthy and happy.
Here’s where I struggle. I am supposed to be happy. I AM happy. Don’t get me wrong. I’m happy to feel baby move and happy to know I will hold him in just a few short months. However, what is happening to my body is bringing me so low. I am just not feeling overall happy, and I didn’t expect that.
A Complex Medical History
Without delving too deep into the graphic details, I’ve had 14 surgeries which have left my entire abdomen full of scars. I have numerous scars running up and down, diagonally, and across my torso. Drain scars, former ostomy scars- just scars, scars, scars! Following one surgery, I had a serious infection so my abdomen had to be re-opened, and I was put on a wound vac to help heal by secondary intention. That process left my tummy full of puckered and thick scar tissue. All this scar tissue causes adhesions. As my abdomen stretches, the scar tissue is stretching and tearing both on the surface and internally. It has been challenging to deal with. This, along with changes in my ostomy with my intestine prolapsing outside my body, has left me feeling depressed over all these reminders that my body isn’t quite the same as others.
This pre-partum situational depression has hit me hard. I am struggling with my body and disease and with my hormones running amok. I have found myself in tears quite a bit lately. I am not writing to complain, NO, but to confront what is happening to me and to share this with others who may struggle with these same feelings during pregnancy or at any time. I know that this is supposed to be the most blessed and happy time of my life, so why am I feeling so blue? I don’t have the answer.
Crochet IS Therapy
During this time, my comfort and refuge is found in my craft. I am so grateful for a loving and supportive husband and the support of a fantastic family, but when I am alone, I find solace in the stitches and the repetitive nature of crochet to help distract and focus my mind on something other than these feelings and the pain from my scars.
Lately, I have been working on so many crochet projects for not only my little guy, but also for my sister-in-law who had a baby girl in January. My niece is the perfect model! These projects, alongside my work here at YARNutopia, has given me a deepened purpose, and these goals have helped me focus on more than the issues I am dealing with.
I know I’m not alone. I know that this is only temporary. I know this is a very small price to pay for bringing my baby into the world. I know I have support and love of an amazing husband, family, and community. I know all these things. I also know it is ok to feel. It is ok to be sad. It is ok to hurt. It is ok to ask for help. It is ok.
After spending a little time yesterday on self-care – I bought myself some springtime flowers to brighten my home, I did some retail therapy and bought myself a few feel-good things, I had my nails done, I took a long walk in the sunshine, a short drive and played my favorite music, and I talked for hours with my mom-I am happy to say that I feel a little better. Today has started off on a good foot and writing this has helped. Also, it has helped to be working on some crochet projects, and I went to brunch with Nate. Each day may present a challenge, but I am thankful be able to face each one in strength and resolve and overcome those challenges!
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Learn how to make this Sparkling Wine Beverage Bag using cable crochet! Making the party rounds during the holiday season? Why not wrap up a special bottle of your favorite beverage in this Sparkling Wine Beverage Bag?! The host/hostess of every event you visit this Christmas will be charmed by this lovely touch and elegant presentation.
Follow along with this video tutorial to learn how to make this beverage bag:
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-Make the piece flat that will wrap around the bottle
-The bottom of the bottle circle is made separately and sewn to the piece.
-This piece is seamed down the back
-This bag is 11 inches (28cm) long -WATCH THE VIDEO TUTORIAL FOR CABLE DESIGN FOR EVERY ROW
YO: Yarn Over
Sl st: slip stitch
SC: Single Crochet
HDC: Half Double Crochet
FPDC: Front Post Double Crochet
BPDC: Back Post Double Crochet
If you have any confusion or difficulty with reading this pattern, please watch the video tutorial to have visual instructions.
Ch 34 Row 1: HDC in 3rd ch from hook and across. Ch 1, turn. (33 sts)
Row 2: HDC in 13 sts, [FPDC in next, HDC in next] 4 times, HDC in last 12 sts, ch 1, turn.
Row 3: HDC in 13 sts, [BPDC in next, HDC in next] 4 times, HDC in last 12 sts, ch 1, turn.
Row 4: HDC in 13 sts, FPDC in next, HDC in next, Sk 2 sts, FPDC around FPDC, HDC in sk’d HDC, FPDC around sk’d FPDC, HDC in next, FPDC in next, HDC in next 13 sts, ch 1, turn.
Row 5: HDC in 13 sts, [BPDC in next, HDC in next] 4 times, HDC in last 12 sts, ch 1, turn.
Row 6: HDC in 13 sts, Sk 2 sts, FPDC around FPDC, HDC in sk’d HD, FPDC around sk’d FPDC, HDC in next, Sk 2 sts, FPDC around FPDC, HDC in sk’d HDC, FPDC around sk’d FPDC, HDC in last 13 sts, ch 1, turn.
Row 7: HDC in 13 sts, [BPDC in next, HDC in next] 4 times, HDC in last 12 sts, ch 1, turn.
Row 8-11: Repeat rows 4-7
Rows 12-15: Repeat Rows 4-7
Rows 16-19: Repeat Rows 4-7
Row 20: HDC in 13 sts, [FPDC in next, HDC in next] 4 times, HDC in last 12 sts, ch 1, turn.
Rows 21-30: HDC across, ch 1, turn.
Fasten off with long tail.
Bottom part of bag:
Ch 4, sl st to 1st ch to form ring. Rnd 1: Ch up 3, (Counts as DC), 11 DC into ring, sl st to ch up 3 (12 sts) Rnd 2: Ch up 3, DC in same st as sl st, 2 DC in each st around, sl st to ch up 3 (24 sts) Rnd 3: Ch up 3, DC in same st as sl st, *DC in next st, 2 DC in next st, repeat from * around, sl st to ch up 3, fasten off with long tail. (36 sts)
Sew the back seam closed, then sew the bottom of the bag to the bag bottom. Weave in all loose ends.
Use ribbon to close the top of the bag.
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